Words From Sue: Fill my Cup

Words From Sue: Fill my Cup

Fill my cup, Lord;
I lift it up Lord;
Come and quench this thirsting of my soul.
Bread of Heaven, feed me till I want no more.
Fill my cup, fill it up and make me whole.

I’m in the middle of three weeks of vacation and suddenly today I felt so very dry and disconnected in my spirit. It didn’t take long to realize that I've had only one bit of quiet time a week over the past two weeks. I smiled ruefully at the awareness. Regular, if not daily, quiet time is BUILT INTO the rhythm of my daily life. When vacationing I am on a different schedule and it is easy to overlook that simple piece of self-care. But, I need regular quiet time. My Spirit needs regular quiet time. Why is that? What happens if I don’t?

My quiet time involves time for prayer, journaling, reading and reflecting on scripture, as well as readings from some select daily meditation books.  I need this to keep my heart focussed on the things that really matter.  I need this time to remind me that I am LOVED, I am NOT ALONE, and that God is with me in everything I do.  When I am spending time in prayer, reading, and reflection I am actively holding the cup of my life up for God to fill.  It reminds me that it is NOT my job to fill my cup, it helps me live more peacefully and joyfully, and empowers me to use the gifts and talents that God has given me to a much better effect.

When I don’t take that time I rapidly forget some very important spiritual truths. I forget that I am loved, I begin to pick on myself for all the faults I believe I have, and I begin to look for someone or something to make me feel better. I forget that I am not alone, and my mind begins desperately to seek for solutions to all the issues in my life.  I lie awake in the middle of the night worrying and wondering how everything will fit together. I forget that God is with me and I begin to play God in my life and the lives of those around me. My mind races and my insides knot. My relationships begin to suffer as people react to my attempts to control them. I become miserable, irritable, and discontented. It is NOT a comfortable or productive place to live. Thankfully, these days I don’t have to be there very long before I realize what is out of whack.

Let me tell you what DOESN’T happen when I don’t make that time. God doesn’t desert me. God doesn’t stop loving me. God remains close at hand. I do NOT get PUNISHED because I haven’t taken that time … but I do pay a price. God has good boundaries. God does not go where she or he is not invited. If I choose not to reach out then I am cutting myself off from that connection—God isn’t going anywhere.  

Humility is about knowing where I fit in the grand scheme of things. When I am having regular quiet times I know where I fit. There is a God, it isn’t me, and whatever is going on in my life will work out if I trust God first and THEN take the next right action. This is NOT mindless faith. Rather a lifetime of experience has taught me that actions taken in fear seldom produce helpful results. When I take the time each day to reconnect with God the gifts and talents which are mine can be used more effectively. I am blessed and I am more likely to be a blessing.  

What is your quiet time routine?  How can you make time to reconnect regularly with God?